Happy Christmas to all...

Merry Christmas!

1040 on christmas eve. waiting for santa. checked www.noradsanta.mil and he was over north carolina. should be here any moment now...

'rents are on a two week cruise in god-(or jeebus)-knows-where. sis is about 40 minutes away with her 'rents-in-law. i spent today cleaning a bathtub and relishing in the glorious death of flour moths.

trying to celebrate christmas without someone who obviously poured her heart and soul into the holiday to show her love for her family is difficult. it could never be as hard for me as it is for those around me but it is difficult for me to acknowledge that maddy will never know her generosity the way the rest of us did. every parent wants the best for their child and i know that maddy has lost a wonderful part of her childhood she will never even realize she had, no matter what we may do to tell her.

i have a theory that santa looks like clive owen. i would like to try to stay up to find out. reenact "i saw mommy kissing santa claus." but after a few glasses of wine and some pseudo-nyquil (stolen from my father-in-law's stash-i figure, if the boot fits...), i'm not sure i can stay awake. plus, Santa probably looks like Super-Monkey.

yeah, did anyone know that Superman had a pet monkey named Super-Monkey? Things you learn from playing a 1984 version of Jr Trivial Pursuit. Things you never really wanted to know. Things you might have nightmares about if hopped up on wine and nyquilsz. Well, not really, but it's time for me to go to bed anyway.

...and to all a good night.